KEENE SENTINEL: "A long and winding road for famer Silegy"
by Steve Gilbert, Keene Sentinel
Tod Silegy will cry today. That's a
given. He cried on the phone talking about today. He hopes he won't
blubber all over his speech, but if he does, so be it.
You see, the passage of 32 years packs a powerful wallop. It
reflects the brightest days and the darkest nights, the unbridled
enthusiasm of a 25-year-old coaching a college soccer team to a
worn-out 46-year-old forced from the only profession he had ever
known.
His passion for soccer, for coaching, for winning, had both defined
him and devoured him.
"My intensity was my strength; my intensity was my weakness," he
says.
So there he was 10 years ago, unemployed, the father of two
daughters, 5 and 2, and a son soon to come, staring at the first
day of the rest of his life.
He may have lost his occupation, but he had a family, and that
would be - and remains today - his No. 1 priority.
His parents divorced, his father left his mother with five children
to raise, and he vowed he would not follow that path, no matter how
messy his divorce from the college he cherished and the sport he
loved. He would be the best father, the best husband, he could
be.
Thus, he mulled a career in sales, anything to get away from
athletics.
After a few months, after talking it out with his wife Beth, he
bought a lucrative-sounding bread route, drove a bread truck. Some
road trip. Driving a truck wasn't quite like touring the country
with his nationally ranked soccer team, or recruiting players
around the world.
"I got into it and in two days I knew I didn't want to do it," he
says of the bread route.
He went back into sales training, got a job selling pagers with
Arch Communications, did pretty well. But waking up every morning
with the objective of selling pagers, well, Willy Loman he was not.
His eagerness to sell stuff soon "dissipated" and he was stuck.
At 47 years old, "I didn't know what to do," he says.
Which brings us to this evening in Rindge.
Tod Silegy, whom his former boss, Bruce Kirsh, describes as "an
outstanding family man, role model and teacher," will be inducted
into the Franklin Pierce University Athletic Hall of Fame.
The prodigal son is coming home.
"I was stunned," Silegy said of his reaction when Peter Brodie,
chairman of the FPU Hall of Fame Committee, told him he had been
voted in. "Never in my wildest dreams did I think this day would
come; it was never even a goal of mine. I never thought about it,
ever, ever."
Silegy, who will turn 56 on Monday, has found contentment, not as a
high-profile soccer coach, but as the father of three (Emily, 15,
Katie, 12, and Sam, 10) and a middle school educator.
Nine years ago, thanks to a chance meeting with old high school
classmate Richard Dunning, a door opened at South Meadow School in
Peterborough and Silegy stepped into a new life. He is a physical
education teacher and athletic director at South Meadow, and says
he couldn't be happier. Dunning is the school's principal.
Silegy, who lives in Keene, has always been a top athlete. He was a
three-sport star at Conval Regional High School, and was a stalwart
in Keene State College's vaunted soccer powerhouse in the
mid-1970s.
He then served as an assistant for two years at Keene State, where
he caught the attention of Kirsh, the newly appointed athletic
director at Franklin Pierce. In one of his first hires, Kirsh took
a gamble on the 26-year-old, naming him the college's head soccer
coach in 1976.
"I turned over a program to him that had minimal success," Kirsh
says.
"I always had a deep respect for the Keene State men's soccer
program. I always felt the leadership that (Coach) Ron Butcher
provided his players was something I wanted to integrate in my
program."
Kirsh wasn't disappointed. In 22 years, Silegy took a middling
National Association of Intercollegiate Athletics soccer team,
guided it through a transition into the much tougher NCAA Division
II ranks in 1988 and built a premier program.
With Silegy pushing the throttle, bringing in players from around
the world, Franklin Pierce became one of the best teams in New
England and beyond. Silegy won 245 matches at Franklin Pierce and
lost 130. He had some teams worthy of winning it all, only to lose
in spectacular heartbreak. A national championship was the carrot
dangling maddeningly at the end of a stick. He never tasted it.
Oh, how it ate at him. "I was getting stretched to the max," Silegy
says. "The pressure of winning - a lot of it self-pressure, not
necessarily from the college - was wearing on me. The only way to
go any higher was to win that national championship, that elusive
national championship."
Silegy started at Franklin Pierce as a bachelor committed solely to
his team: 22 years later he had a young family and faced an
inevitable conflict. The losses tore at him more than ever. His
family wanted more of him.
"I remember to this day Beth would say, ‘Tod, can you go to
work a little later?' and, ‘Tod, can you come home a little
earlier?' It doesn't work that way. In the coaching profession, a
day is done when the day is done," Silegy says.
Something had to give.
Although Kirsh and Silegy still won't talk about it today, the
snapping point occurred on Oct. 13, 1999, when a night match at St.
Anselm College, at Singer Park in Manchester, spiraled out of
control. Fights, ejections, red cards, yellow cards, verbal
assaults on officials, the whole ugly mess reverberated through the
league and spilled into the press.
Less than a week later, Kirsh called Silegy into his office and
Silegy resigned.
"When it finally happened, when it was all done, quite honestly, it
was a relief," Silegy says. "Maintaining a high-level program year
in, year out, was just wearing and tearing on me."
And it tore at Kirsh, for not only was he losing a coach, he was
losing a best friend. Those dark days remain taboo today.
"Tod needed some time to heal and reflect and understand what
happened and how it happened," is all Kirsh will say.
It was Dunning who believed in Silegy and steered him into
teaching. After spurning sales, Silegy returned to Keene State for
his teaching certificate. Dunning offered Silegy the job at South
Meadow on the day he interviewed for it.
He's entrenched there, nine years and counting. He coaches several
sports, runs youth soccer camps and is heavily involved in his
children's activities - scholastic, sports, even glowing about
10-year-old Sam's artistic talents.
But the win-at-all-costs college coach is long gone.
"I work with young kids," he says. "Whenever I coach, I teach them
the right way, the fundamentals. I develop the player, not the
team. The team will evolve as the players evolve. ... I teach them
to be ambassadors for your school and learn how to be coached."
Though he teaches just 20 minutes from Rindge, a straight shot down
Route 202 and hang a right on Route 119, it took Silegy six years
before he set foot on the Franklin Pierce campus again. He did so
in anonymity, just showed up for a soccer match one day.
"I wanted to watch and see what Franklin Pierce looked like,"
Silegy says of the new state-of-the-art fields that were put in
after he left. "It was unbelievable. There was no bitterness. I
guess it was like an alumni going back to his college."
When Kirsh spotted him at the game, the two talked like old friends
catching up on missed years.
"Not only was I surprised, I embraced it," Kirsh says. "It was like
turning the clock back. He came to a game, we had a brand-new
field, but otherwise it was deja vu."
Silegy continued to go back. And Kirsh quietly pushed him for the
university's hall of fame.
On Saturday afternoon, Silegy hosted a gathering at the Wheelock
Park pavilion in Keene for friends, former players and just about
anyone who wanted to celebrate. This evening it culminates with
Silegy's induction at the FPU Fieldhouse.
"I'm indebted to two people: Bruce Kirsh and Richard Dunning,"
Silegy says through tears.
"This is what I owe Franklin Pierce, at a minimum: They prepared me
to be a very good physical education director. I learned how to be
a teacher, a family man. ..."
Kirsh, too, will have to choke back the tears.
"I always hoped that there would be a time where we could move
forward," Kirsh says.
"It's going to be very emotional. He gave his all for 22 years and
he loves this place. There'll always be a spot in my heart for Tod
Silegy and what we did, and the friendship we have. It will be an
emotional night for a lot of people."
Tears are sure to flow.
Steve Gilbert is a Sentinel editor. His column appears on Sundays.